Breaking The Chains Of Addiction
Attitudes That Keep You Prisoner
Denial
Life is unpredictable, and denial helps us cope and focus on what we must in order to survive. On the other hand, denial harms us when it causes us to ignore problems for which there are solutions or deny feelings and needs that if dealt with would enhance our lives.
When it comes to codependency, denial has been called the hallmark of addiction. It’s true not only for drug (including alcohol) addicts, but also for their partners and family members. This also applies to abuse and other types of addiction. We may use denial in varying degrees:
Other types of denial are forgetting, outright lying or contradicting the facts due to self-deception. Deeper still, we may repress things that are too painful to remember or think about.
Denial is a helpful defense. There are many reasons we use denial, including avoidance of physical or emotional pain, fear, shame or conflict. It’s the first defense that we learn as a child.
Denial is adaptive when it helps us cope with difficult emotions, such as in the initial stages of grief following the loss of a loved one, particularly if the separation or death is sudden. Denial allows our body-mind to adjust to the shock more gradually.
It’s not adaptive when we deny warning signs of a treatable illness or problem out of fear.
Inner conflict is another major reason for denial. Children often repress memories of abuse not only due to their pain, but because they’re dependent on their parents, love them, and are powerless to leave home. Young children idealize their parents. It’s easier to forget, rationalize, or make excuses than accept the unthinkable reality that my mother or father (their entire world) is cruel or crazy. Instead, they blame themselves.
As adults, we deny the truth when it might mean we’d have to take action we don’t want to. We might not look at how much debt we’ve accumulated because that would require us to lower our spending or standard of living, creating inner conflict.
A woman who notices facts from which she could infer that her husband is cheating might rationalize and supply other explanations for the evidence, because confronting the truth forces her to face not only the pain of betrayal, humiliation, and loss, but the possibility of divorce. An addicted parent might look the other way when his child is getting high, because he’d have to do something about his own marijuana habit.
Frequently, partners of addicts or abusers are on the “merry-go-round” of denial. The addicts and abusers can be loving and even responsible at times and promise to stop their drug use or abuse, but soon start breaking trust and promises again. Once again apologies and promises are made and believed because the partner loves them, may deny his or her own needs and worth, and is afraid to end the relationship.
Codependents have internalized shame from childhood. Shame is an extremely painful emotion. Most people, don’t realize how much shame drives their lives — even if they think their self-esteem is pretty good.
Denial of needs is a major reason codependents remain unhappy in relationships. They deny problems and deny that they’re not getting their needs met. They’re not aware that that’s the case. If they do, they might feel guilty and lack the courage to ask for what they need or know how to get their needs met. Learning to identify and express our feelings and needs is a major part of recovery and is essential to well-being and enjoying satisfying relationships.
You might be wondering how to tell if you’re in denial. There are actually signs. Do you:
When it comes to codependency, denial has been called the hallmark of addiction. It’s true not only for drug (including alcohol) addicts, but also for their partners and family members. This also applies to abuse and other types of addiction. We may use denial in varying degrees:
- First degree: Denial that the problem, symptom, feeling or need exists.
- Second degree: Minimization or rationalization.
- Third degree: Admitting it, but denying the consequences.
- Fourth degree: Unwilling to seek help for it.
Other types of denial are forgetting, outright lying or contradicting the facts due to self-deception. Deeper still, we may repress things that are too painful to remember or think about.
Denial is a helpful defense. There are many reasons we use denial, including avoidance of physical or emotional pain, fear, shame or conflict. It’s the first defense that we learn as a child.
Denial is adaptive when it helps us cope with difficult emotions, such as in the initial stages of grief following the loss of a loved one, particularly if the separation or death is sudden. Denial allows our body-mind to adjust to the shock more gradually.
It’s not adaptive when we deny warning signs of a treatable illness or problem out of fear.
Inner conflict is another major reason for denial. Children often repress memories of abuse not only due to their pain, but because they’re dependent on their parents, love them, and are powerless to leave home. Young children idealize their parents. It’s easier to forget, rationalize, or make excuses than accept the unthinkable reality that my mother or father (their entire world) is cruel or crazy. Instead, they blame themselves.
As adults, we deny the truth when it might mean we’d have to take action we don’t want to. We might not look at how much debt we’ve accumulated because that would require us to lower our spending or standard of living, creating inner conflict.
A woman who notices facts from which she could infer that her husband is cheating might rationalize and supply other explanations for the evidence, because confronting the truth forces her to face not only the pain of betrayal, humiliation, and loss, but the possibility of divorce. An addicted parent might look the other way when his child is getting high, because he’d have to do something about his own marijuana habit.
Frequently, partners of addicts or abusers are on the “merry-go-round” of denial. The addicts and abusers can be loving and even responsible at times and promise to stop their drug use or abuse, but soon start breaking trust and promises again. Once again apologies and promises are made and believed because the partner loves them, may deny his or her own needs and worth, and is afraid to end the relationship.
Codependents have internalized shame from childhood. Shame is an extremely painful emotion. Most people, don’t realize how much shame drives their lives — even if they think their self-esteem is pretty good.
Denial of needs is a major reason codependents remain unhappy in relationships. They deny problems and deny that they’re not getting their needs met. They’re not aware that that’s the case. If they do, they might feel guilty and lack the courage to ask for what they need or know how to get their needs met. Learning to identify and express our feelings and needs is a major part of recovery and is essential to well-being and enjoying satisfying relationships.
You might be wondering how to tell if you’re in denial. There are actually signs. Do you:
- Think about how you wish things would be in your relationship?
- Wonder, “If only, he (or she) would . . .?”
- Doubt or dismiss your feelings?
- Believe repeated broken assurances?
- Conceal embarrassing aspects of your relationship?
- Hope things will improve when something happens (e.g., a vacation, moving, or getting married)?
- Make concessions and placate, hoping it will change someone else?
- Feel resentful or used by your partner?
- Spend years waiting for your relationship to improve or someone to change?
- Walk on eggshells, worry about your partner’s whereabouts, or dread talking about problems?
Proverbs 9:12
12 If you are wise, your wisdom will reward you;
if you are a mocker, you alone will suffer.Ezra 10:4
4 Rise up; this matter is in your hands. We will support you, so take courage and do it.”
If you identified the negative attitude of Denial in your DMI today, take some time to complete this devotional. Read each passage beginning with (Proverbs 9:12).
Meditate on this verse(s). Continue with the next passage until all passages are completed. It is imperative that you allow the Holy Spirit to confront us with our sinful attitudes and character flaws, and that we take responsibility for our behavior without making excuses. This requires looking honestly at the intentions of our hearts if we are to allow God to work in these areas. Ask the Lord to reveal the truth behind these attitudes. Our hearts are deceitful and we will try to hide the true reasons behind these behaviors. Be sure to write down any revelations of the Holy Spirit, especially where they come from.
Meditate on this verse(s). Continue with the next passage until all passages are completed. It is imperative that you allow the Holy Spirit to confront us with our sinful attitudes and character flaws, and that we take responsibility for our behavior without making excuses. This requires looking honestly at the intentions of our hearts if we are to allow God to work in these areas. Ask the Lord to reveal the truth behind these attitudes. Our hearts are deceitful and we will try to hide the true reasons behind these behaviors. Be sure to write down any revelations of the Holy Spirit, especially where they come from.